Hey.
So I'm here again..I tried the Pumpkin Spice Chai today. It = very good. I went into work early today..about 10 minutes after 7. Anyway, I went to church as well. And I'm supposed to go back..at some point. Luckily no one specified a time. I could be here for..hours. But that's not likely.
I'm 17..and everyone has me figured out. have you ever felt like that before? I don't know which bothers me more, the fact that they assume or the possibility they may be right. I think it's a little of both.
Anyway. I've been a complete mess lately. I think if you looked close enough, you could see right through me or inside me, whichever you prefer. If you'd even care. See, I'm talking like a typical adolescent teenager. I don't feel typical, however. I feel like every moment is a waste. I think about sleep whenever I'm awake. And when I'm asleep I think of nothing at all. That's the way I like it. I did have a dream a couple nights ago. I bought a baby lion and I kept him in my brother's closet. Other than that I can't remember any of my dreams.
I looked dead in church today. I felt dead, as well. I may have opened my mouth twice. If I had a choice in the matter I would take a break and not go for a while. I would go to my friend's church..which isn't a building..but a group that meets in each other's homes...
Oh, back to work. (since it's all i do these days) i mentioned something about putting in a two weeks notice ( i said " how do i go about putting in a two weeks notice?" Is that discreet enough?) Anyway I was asked why I was thinking of doing it..and I said something about feeling I was basically underpaid. My manager said we'd talk..so I'm hoping I'll see a raise soon. Even just a slight one. Two pennies, that's all I ask.
I just finished my chai. I wonder if I should buy another one... | 
